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So… its been a while since i’ve posted(which is becoming a silly little habbit) but so many things have changed. Think ima just write a list, its going to be so much easier.

• Moved out to my own flat
• Broke up with the girlfriend – moved on, lol….
• Kickstarting the business
• Dropped out of college (i would like to point out, i am going back)

Oh its a good little way of living life isnt it. Should be having a house party soon too, y’know, breaking the flat in and such

Cyaaa!

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So, it was only a day ince i way happy with things and now Im even happier and also kinda feeling a little stupid.

Asked Hannah out and she said yes, I think its going to be the start of something great to be honest. Going out to dinner again on thursday and I’ve also got a few surprises up my sleeve. Oh its going to be a good night

oh, katie is ignoring me cause i didnt tell her about Hannah, could have seen that one coming and well… thats my fault.

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Sorry

Really am

Its been a hetic few months for me, with exams, girls and life in general. To be quite honest in the past few months I’ve come along way. Still running initialsketch, wish i had more time to put towards it but to be honest, im a teenager and i’ve stuff going down. Still working at mcdonalds, getting along with everyone, I got a promotion with my best mate, now too, the girl im seeing and another one of my best friends got promoted too. Payrise and a new uniform, thanks babes

Im seeing someone great, shes got some problems but over that, shes one of the strongest people I know, i really have to hand it to her, she great. Totally out of my league aswell, im counting myself pretty lucky, planning to ask her out after exams so we’re an actual item. We’ve been on a few dates which are great, love spending time with her. Both want the same things so I dont see why not. Her Names Hannah by the way, probably should have told you that

Im talking to Katie again, i haven’t for a good 4 months, in that time i did some really shifty things but hey. Shes had a rough time too, on her birthday, i text her, not expecting anything back, but I got a message back and now we’re on a sure path to being friends of the closest nature. I saw her yesterday, totally forgetting how damn amazing she is, really kicked in how lovely she really is. I guess you could say, in the future, when the times right and its meant to be, it might happen. Right now, i want her close to me, as a best friend, because, shes Katie.

College is wank, sorry for the language but it really is. Working full-ish time hours made me realise how much of a waste of time college is. Yes, i know im there to get the bit of paper at the end of it all, but its really starting to get to me.  Sitting in a classroom is really hard for me right now,  I want to be out earning money and just having a life, already sat down in a class for 17 years, i’d really like a longer break than just 6 weeks holiday. Its a really hard decision to stay  or go, but I guess I’ll have to give it some serious thought and then come up with a plan.

Driving, getting my car on the road within the next month and im going to go ahead and get my insurance so I can drive my dads car along with my car. £90 a month for temporary insurance doesnt sound too bad.

Oh, Lifes good, but a little stationary at the moment.

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Anybody who thinks i cant do it anymore better step right back and take that

Did I Mention that development starts this week?

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So about a month ago i was getting along with her and things were going really well for once, felt confident that there were feelings and she made it quite clear that I should meet up with her, then again i was pushing to see her too, loving her and whatnot, its what i wanted.

Was awake on night and thought I might buy her a really nice present, for valentines for w/e but yeah, i know she wouldnt do anything for me so i guess i wanted it to just be a random present. Now due to recklessness and well, no bloggable stuff nothings going to happen.

So now, i’ve got a box of 48 Creme Eggs and a card that are going to waste.

Would anyone like a creme egg?

I’m done.

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“All good things come to an end”  – A small phrase that’s become increasingly annoying over the past few months but to be honest, after the initial annoyance about it, its true. Talking in relation to my church this time, im leaving!

Many of the Christians that read this are going to worry and there’s no need. It’s not a sign of my faith fading, its simply a case of not belonging to my current church. The climb, has been to getting to where I am now, a point of responsibility in the church, currently leaving a youth alpha. The alpha is great and hopefully we’ll be able to inspire some young minds and change something for the better. The reason im leaving, is peoples attitude, they’re “Common” approach to many of the things that go on and the regardless”ness” to anything slightly innovative and technical. On the other hand, they’re not totally to blame. I’m the type of guy, that likes to have a good time, likes to laugh about some of the rudest things and make fun of some of the funniest things, being in the environment, like church, stops me from doing that. I could argue that it “bores” me, but I’d be lying. The whole world of my religion is very interesting, but right now, I’ve got higher aspirations and larger targets to work towards. I’ve got a christian event, spring harvest, coming up dont really want to go but i am well, because I had spare money. This will be my last christian event for a while, I’d like to focus on work(maccers and company) along with my intense college work.

Still working to get the girl I love back, but on the other hand, she needs to meet me halfway. I cant really put out anymore, Meeting up with her soon so hopefully, we can talk some things over and get back close again.

Work(maccers) is a complete laugh, I work with some really good people, despite working there (lets be honest, people only do it for the cash, no one wants it as a career, carley….) they’re really awesome and make my 13 hour shifts fly

Work(Initialsketch) is awesome, its flying high right now, we’ve got over 30 clients planned for approach this quarter, We’ve got no previous sales data to base the return on so it’s a hit and miss project, we can only hope that our company image, recommendations and tone will payoff.

College(Tauntons) Well, Im in the student union now, I got elected on Thursday I dont know what my position is right now but yes, im in the admin, lets change this college for the better shall we?!?! My lessons are alright, catching up on economics and law right now, flying along in business, our push ahead challenge is lagging a little but still going well. Computing… well, lets just say, maybe that was a wrong choice.

Driving, We’ll im on my 4th lesson now, the 4th will be on Tuesday and is starting at college and proceeding into town. Your supposed to go into town on your 7th lesson, I’ve done everything up to this now, the 4th. We should start maneuvers on the 5th and that puts my plan to take my test on the 10th in motion Excited? I am getting my car in for it’s MOT in a few weeks, should pass with the effort I’ve put in…

Have a good week guys, hopefully something good will happen this week, I’d like it to at least.

Still undecided if i should send the package or not =/

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I’ve ended up buying a present for someone, I cant even give it to, sorry… I think I’ve lost it now, why the hell did i spend £36 on that! I hope I dont send it, if I do, I might as well kill myself, cause someone else will. Confused? Most people would be.

Got a friend i care way to much about, actually I love her, shes having a rubbish time at the moment, with a guy that doesnt deserve her at all. She needs to be treated right, again, like she was. Its really annoying because all i want to do is, hold her, kiss her and tell her that, everything will be ok. I guess that i cant do that and i’ll just be adding to this shit that she’s already got in her life. Might see her on friday, I hope I do anyway, seriously dangerous ground. For the record, I’d sort all the crap, make sure things are ok and seriously, be the gentleman she needs. She knows that, and hopefully, thats going to make a difference if it comes to making a decision. For now…. on with just being there for her.

My business teacher, oh my god, she must hate me or something, seriously, if she has one more go at me, I’m walking. bitchhhhh!

2nd driving lesson on tuesday… thats like :O today! Gonna be epic, my first on was a complete breeze, I think im a good driver, that coming from a learner isnt much but my teacher was pretty impressed. Sunday evening I was driving around southampton in my friends car… mega fun. Tuesday 2nd driving lesson and then im going to mess about in my car for a bit. Swwweeeetttt. Gonna be driving in no time.

College, well apart from being targeted my teachers all of a sudden, its alright Started a new gym now and started running again, need to do it for myself so yeah, its good.

If anyone wants to get me anything for valentines day…. katy perry wouldn’t go a miss

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So its Sunday, I don’t like Sundays, I like sunday evenings but sundays as a day, they suck. Probably one of the most random things ever but hey!

You know you need someone,
When the need’s so strong,
When they’re gone you don’t know how to go on,
So the whole world is stuck in a moment.

Had my first driving lesson today, it was quite fun. I’ve already got my car, will have it’s MOT done soon… then tax and insurance will come from somewhere. I’m doing it with a potential client, I like his attitude and his personality. I feel slightly bad as I know another driving instructor personally, he’s nice too but i fell into this one Im with now. I’m planning to pass my test just before june, meaning ill be able to drive to college and so on next year, summer should be a giggle driving too. I’m pretty confident in a car as it is, already been messing about in them, driving friends and so on. Should be easy to pass, I’ve got confidence when it comes to driving, my confidence has taken a hit lately but im trying to get it back.

You accept that they’ve, got things to do,
But sometimes in the end there’s nothing left for you,
If hurt is missing your baby,
I’ve done too much of it lately.

Initialsketch is flying high, we’re a little uncertain as to what the future would bring for the company but now we’ve got a clear vision. We’re aiming to redefine ourselves this year, should be really good if the right people (that we’ve got now) stick with us. We’ve also got involved with nompix, meaning the developing of pureelite starts again. I couldn’t throw it away, I sold the domain… and then I bought it back for a lot more because it meant way to much. Because I cant invest my time in a certain person, I’m doing this meanwhile.

And even when we mad, and say we’re through,
Deep inside you feel the same way i do,
Might as well turn around and just end this,
Cause it’s harder trying to stay mad.

Sent a text today, had it in my outbox for a good two days, been telling myself not to send it because, well, I just didn’t want too. Found myself on the best with a friend talking about someone else, then I sent the text. I saw a movie on friday early evening, up in the air. What a boring movie! It’s got a good message but tis a little boring, if you get impatient, don’t go and see it. Either way, Talking to a friend and after watching this movie, I had to just send it. I am kinda hoping, I’ll get something back, If I do, I know theres a chance. Might aswell try anyway, havent got anything to loose really. I just cant fight this feeling any longer.

Every minutes like an hour,
Every hours like a day,
Every day lasts forever,
But what else am i gonna do,
I’d wait forever and a day for you.

Work and then Glee tonight

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Oh yes… hello weekend Got a whole day at college to get through first!

This weekend is jam packed and yeah, its going to be epic! College, Party on a random beach in Totton, then work all day on saturday followed by a train up to fareham! In fareham, off to party at Tasha’s should be a giggle, some nice cool people going, will be nice to get to know them. Sunday morning, got my first driving lesson followed by working for initialsketch and meetings in the evening. Who ever said Im not busy eh?

Just going to be a nice weekend if everything goes to plan, Something I think I need. Note to self…. behave. heh…. oh, I had a shit day at work today… I’ve had enough now to be honest, it was the first time I’ve lost my cool in about a year. People just need to understand that, a joke has a point. You stop before you get to it.

*sigh, didnt get a text either… mmm,*

Sleep? Yes Please. It’s needed for once.

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When you meet someone, you get one chance, one chance to make the right impression. I usually make a good impression but once you know someone, that impression means a whole lot more. I talked to someone for the first time today in a while, its been nice to say the least… theres still loads of shit between us but hey, I guess… once you’ve been through what we have, its not going anywhere. She’s having  shitty time at the moment and as much as I want to be there for her I cant be. I’m sure, if she really wanted to talk to me about things, then she would but theres only one thing that stops be from getting any closer and stops me from being the guy I could be for her. Its really horrible that this is the case, but I am not the guy, that ruins other peoples relationships for the hell of it. I could really, hopefully make a change in her for the best, but I put out so much, and got nothing back it hurt. This evening ended up in my shutting down again, i wanted to say how i felt, but i know thats its not the same. I guess…. I’ll talk to her when she wants to talk to me again. I cna only hope she feels the same way… but more to the point… if shes actually going to ever give me a chance again. Right now, I would just like to be there for her, I know her, better than anyone hopefully, I’d love to use that to help in anyway.

Moving onto a more enlightening subject…

I’ve got a letter, two actually! They’re what I’ve been waiting for Initialsketch is moving like wildfire, I’ve got permission to now start my marketing campaign. ITS GOING TO BE AMAZING – hopefully. It’s weird because when you put effort and faith into something… it goes like wildfire. Finally… something is going my way.

Theres this other person, I have hopefully left a good impression with, playing with fire!

Na Na Naiii…